Momma’s Boy

   

     As I am writing this post, my youngest son is hovering nearby coming over from time to time to see what I am doing. Little does he know that I am writing about him. You see, as far as he is concerned, the sun rises and sets on my head. It’s quite a big responsibility to be looked up to that much by another human being. His love and attention is something that humbles me on a daily basis. We have been partners for a long time, him and I.   A little over four years, to be exact…

    He was born in one of the coldest months of the year, February. His entrance was a grand one with screaming and fussing to mark his arrival and his presence. I was shocked to see his red skin and his head of pitch black straight hair. My husband and I jokingly referred to him as our Little Papoose. Unfortunately, when we left the hospital with him, he already had a cold. This was no ordinary cold and, due to the negligence of a pediatrician who is no longer our pediatrician, it turned into full blown Pneumonia a few weeks later. There are no words to describe how my heart broke that day that we were told that he had to be admitted to the hospital.

    All I could do was sob as we rode the elevator up to the Pediatrics ward to admit my six week old baby who was near death. Actually, the Pediatric Pulmonologist who was treating him told me he wasn’t making any promises about his long term survival. Every single day that he fought for his life, I would curl up next to him in his crib, under the oxygen tent, and tell him how much I loved him and how I would not be able to live without him.  Little by little, I think he heard me and felt me because he finally turned the corner and the doctors were finally able to tell me that he would make it.

    I don’t know if, subconsciously, E remembers this experience or the emotions that surrounded him.  Sometimes I wonder if that is the reason why he is so close to me and why he clings to me unlike anyone else, including his father.  My older son is also very close to me but it is different because he is very independent and close to his Dad too.  E is different, he is all mine.  When I am around him, he only has eyes for me.  As a matter of fact, he told me recently that if a hungry wolf came to the house that he would tell him to eat his Daddy and spare his Mommy.  This was very amusing to me but my husband definitely did not appreciate it as much.

    Sometimes I wonder what makes me so special and blessed to be loved so unconditionally by this child.  I have never been an overly affectionate person, however, both of my children make me want to love them and show them how much I love them.  E has definitely had an impact on the way that I express my affection because he will not settle for less than you loving him with your whole heart and soul.  Just when I think I am doing everything that I can to show him how much he means to me, he asks for more.

    If I am in a bad mood, he will act silly to make me laugh.  Other times, he will spend hours serenading me with songs singing my praises as a “Beautiful Mommy, Unicorn Princess, or Butterfly.”  He absolutely warms my heart.  He is my sweet boy and I don’t want to share him with the world.  I’m sure many of you who are mothers reading this post will understand where I am coming from.  You see, I teach Middle School so I know what happens to sweet boys and girls after they have been jaded by the world and all of its influences.  Really, is there anything that we can do to keep them innocent?

    I don’t have the answer to that and I’m not sure any of you will either.  We cannot shield them from all of the bad things in the world.  We won’t be able to mend their broken hearts or fix broken promises.  Life has its own way of teaching its lessons.  The only thing that we could do is to love them and love them some more.  For now, I will enjoy every minute of he and his brother’s innocence.  The truth is that I enjoy being loved so completely.  Nobody has every loved me as unconditionally as my E loves me and he will always be my “Momma’s Boy.” 

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Comments

  1. Oh my goodness what a beautiful post and letter to your precious son and what a scary situation! I am so glad he pulled through to be with you and give you so much love. Now you have me even more emotional as baby VIolet fell down ALL of the stairs tonight and I was terrified. Our kids are everything and it is just impossible to protect them from everything no matter how hard we try.

    • Brittany, I can’t even begin to tell you how scary it was. He really is a doll and so loving. Don’t worry, they are more resilient than they look. E fell down the stairs coming down from my mother’s house one day. Luckily her stairs are carpeted so there was no damage. He is not allowed to go up and down her stairs anymore without an adult. You are right, we can’t protect them from everything but we can certainly try…

  2. What a beautiful post! I can’t even imagine what you were going through when he had pneumonia! Thank God he came through. Your boys are beautiful. You can’t protect them from everything, but the love and security you’re giving them now will help build a foundation they can fall back on when times are hard. They’ll know that things can be better because you showed them that.

    • Thank you, Chela. It was one of the hardest moments of my life. That is my hope that the values that I am teaching them will carry them through the hard times. As we all know, being adults, hard times are inevitable in everyone’s life. Your words validate what I am doing as a Mom and I really appreciate them. I always love all your comments and feedback.

  3. what an amazing little boy, absolutely touching post thank you for sharing this with us.

  4. OHHHHHHHHHHH SWEET

    MUMMY!

    WHAT A SWEET MOM YOU ARE!

    ANYWAY THANKS,
    NICE TO SEE YOU

  5. Hello TCM, I loved this post as I can relate to going through a similar experience. Your family is beautiful, as mothers we are truly blessed to have these wonderful children in our lives. Thank you for coming by my blog , I’ll try to participate as often as I can in the Monday mingle.

    Love Lisa xx

    • Hi, Lisa. That is so true, it is such a blessing to have these beautiful children in our lives. I’m so glad I passed by and that we have been able to connect. I knew I was going to like you a lot!

  6. This such a touching post, Maria! And your little ones are just too adorable:) I am now following you thanks to Follow Me Back Tuesday and it would be so nice if you could share the love back on my blog:)
    And don’t forget to stop by our Show Yo’ Flow Campaign today to see the interview we have on Dalia and the surprises she has for everybody:) See you there! Happy Tuesday!

  7. Touching post! It so nice to read about a mother’s love for her son. My son is gone, flew the nest, away at college. All too soon. I miss him so much.

    Nice to have met you during blogchat the other night…I would have never discovered your blo, and it’s so nice here!

    • Hi, Suzette! Thanks for stopping in. I can’t imagine what the house will be like when my boys leave the nest. It seems that so much of my life is about being their mother. I’m sure I will miss them a lot like you miss your son. It was nice to meet you too and I’m glad you connected to this post.

  8. Hi there! Mimi here @bigguysmama from the Twitter party. Following you now. I have 2 blogs Woven by Words http://wovenbywords.blogspot.com which is faith and personal based and then there’s Marvelous Mom Reviews http://marvelousmomreviews.blogspot.com which is a family friendly product review and giveaway site! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your blessing of a family!

    ~Mimi

  9. Oh my! Did you guys do anything about the pediatrician besides switching? I probably would have sued, but that’s just me.

    • You know, we probably should have sued because it was definitely malpractice. However, it was such a traumatic experience and we were so happy that our baby was okay that suing somehow took a backseat.

  10. I love this post! I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to take your brand new baby back to the hospital and watch him struggle for his life. It’s amazing the power these tiny little bundles have on our hearts from day one.

    My son is a mama’s boy too and I love it! He drives me crazy with all his “boy” energy, but he makes me laugh constantly and is such a tender soul.

    I went and squeezed him tight after reading this post. It is full of emotion and such a positve feeling…

    Thank you.

    • I tell you, Daria, I am completely in love with my baby boy. He makes me feel so loved and so accomplished as a Mom. Both of my boys are a complete joy and I am a better person for being blessed with both of them in my life.

  11. Soooooo precious!!!!!

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